I don't know exactly what I need, but I definitely need help. Before getting back to obeying Christ and attending a church of Christ, I was out doing what I wanted to do and ended up pregnant. The baby's father and I ended up getting married a few months after I had the baby. It's now has been a few years since we have been married. We have a home, are back in the church, and doing good. But for some reason, I'm having insecurities about my husband's height. He is 5'7 and I am 5'3. Before I always dated taller guys because of the comfort and secured feeling. But now these thoughts are vivid and hurtful because it's something that neither one of us can change. I'm already having impending thought of what my son's height is going be and deep down I hope he's not short (because of idiots like myself). I hate for him to be ridiculed for something that he can't do anything about and I pray I don't ridicule him for his height. I pray he gets his height from my father, but I know that is totally wrong; that's why I need help.
How do I get those thought out of my head and strickly focus on the good in life, instead of griping? Thanking God for my husband and my two babies amongst the many other blessings He has blessed me with? I pray about it, but it's hard. I look at my husband and they start all over again. I know height does not make less or more of a man, so I just wish it would go away. I know it's a sin to worry, so I try to pray about things instead of letting it drive me crazy, but sometimes I just get overwhelmed. I know it's nothing but the devil lurking! So any advice will be greatly helpful.
"Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content: I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" (Philippians 4:11-13).
I'm going to guess that it hasn't been all that long ago since your second child was born because the type of worry is both consuming and trivial at the same time. It is just the type of worry that bothers new mothers. If it has been a while since your youngest has been born (say over a year), then you should see a doctor about getting your hormone levels checked -- just in case.
Rather than spending your time in fruitless prayers over matters that deep down you know don't matter. I want you to spend your prayer time focusing on thanking God for each of your blessings.
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy -- meditate on these things. The things which you learned and received and heard and saw in me, these do, and the God of peace will be with you" (Philippians 4:6-9).
Your son will be the perfect height for him. It doesn't matter if he is short, tall, or average. I can guarantee that some of his playmates will find something to tease him about. It will be harsh, it won't be fair, but the experience will help him grow into a man as you teach him how to handle adversity with grace.
After all, your husband wasn't the tallest of men, but he turned out to be a man you are willing to spend the rest of your life with. That isn't something to overlook.