My husband cheats, doesn't pay the bills, brings women into my kids and my home that I pay for, and takes the money I have left after bills for weed. If God loves me, why would He want me to live like this? I can't even drive myself in my car to work. A man is supposed to provide for his home, not the woman. He lives there regardless if we listen and bow or not.
It has nothing to do with your perceived happiness. "And I say to you, whoever divorces his wife, except for sexual immorality, and marries another, commits adultery; and whoever marries her who is divorced commits adultery" (Matthew 19:9). Since your husband is committing adultery (sexual sins) and had no remorse about it, then you can divorce him and marry someone who will honor a marriage covenant.
The only reason you are in this situation is that you have let it continue, so why are you blaming God?