How can I have peace at home?

Question:

Well, amen.

It's really a very confusing thing. I've been married for a few years. My wife and I are, by the grace of Christ, called to the evangelistic ministry, and the Holy Spirit has imparted gifts to us.

I have been a good man and have been looking for economic stability for my home, which is partly good but not so much since I feel a demand concerning the time of spiritual search. I work from 8 am to 5 pm and have lunchtime, of course. My wife has had the gift of discernment for as long as I have known her, but something has made me feel like it. I wanted to produce a closure in my heart and a distancing since I have sought by all means to maintain communion today much more than before. But most days, when I arrive home, she changes, and when I ask her and insist, she shares her annoyance. She says that she had been fine all day until she arrived home. She feels pain in her chest like a knife going into her, and she feels that I bring wars and that I have demonic influences.

This is where my doubts, concerns, and great frustration come in. How is this possible?

I don't justify myself for what I do, but in the mornings, before going to work, I always take an hour to present myself to God in prayer. When I leave for work and start the day, I always try to keep listening to praises, nourishing myself with messages, and sometimes, when I have the moment, I go up to the roof of the buildings to talk to the Lord because from there all I can see is the sky. I have had very beautiful experiences with the Holy Spirit, including self-liberation. I have felt at peace in the covering of the Lord and motivated by the Holy Spirit's work in that time of intimacy.

However, all this falls to the ground and collapses when I get home. My wife, even having these experiences, tells me what I feel when I arrive. I thought she had something against me in her emotions because it was something personal, but she insisted it was something spiritual.

The other thing that has me questioning is why she feels this about me, but she does not feel it with her mother, who lives with us at home. At least I am a believer and always look for a way to keep myself in communion, although sometimes there are worries and distractions. I am not impious, and I know well the high price that Christ paid on the cross of Calvary for me to allow an enemy who has more power than the power of Christ.

My mother-in-law is a non-Christian woman. We have looked for 1001 ways for her to give her life to Jesus, but she has not wanted to. She is an old lady and has closed her heart to the things of God. She has a cigarette habit, and all day long, she has the television on, watching programs that I know produce negative things in the spiritual world. In this regard, I do not understand how my wife does not feel the atmosphere with her mother that she says she feels when I get home and insists that it is me. My wife cries and gets frustrated, sad, and overwhelmed because when she tells me this, I also react with frustration.

In order not to be so long in my question, I want to know what is recommended to me to do since, through the Bible, I have not found a conclusive answer.

I know well that there are details that every man is obligated to do, such as family services at home, prayers, and the stature of the word at home. I have wanted to do it, but I have often lacked discipline because of the time at work. When I arrive at the place, I always try to take an hour to pray before continuing with the rest, but when I arrive, most of the people pray for the rest of the time. Sometimes, my wife needs us to go out somewhere and run some errands since we have only one vehicle, and in this case, it is regrettable the attitude she takes when she supposedly perceives that negative atmosphere that I bring when the most I do is try to walk connected to the source of the Holy Spirit.