I’m living with a guy I know is involved with another woman

Question:

I have been committing sins since I was 15. I’m now in my twenties and a single mother to a beautiful child. I and her father broke up because he was unfaithful to me; he got another girl pregnant several years ago.  I also had an abortion when I was in my late teens. I got pregnant by the father of my daughter and we thought we weren’t ready for another child. Big mistake! I ask God for forgiveness all the time. I think He is in the process of forgiving me because recently I’ve able to talk about it and talk to girls about not having an abortion. I already convince one of my friends to keep her baby, which made me really happy.

I learned to love my parents and forgive them for their mistakes. See, I didn’t meet my parents until I was ten. I was left in my country while they came to the USA when I was a baby.  When I met them, my dad wasn’t a great father. He drank all the time; he would get so drunk that he started touching my private parts. I felt I was not a part of his family, and I ran away from home at the age of 13. I got placed in a foster home until I was 15. That’s when I met my daughter's father. Somehow I learned to forgive my parents. Honestly, I don't know how, but I guess I did. Now I love them a whole lot, I respect them, I take care of them, and I can now call them mom and dad instead of by their names.  They also love me very much. They been there for me since the breakup and help me with anything I need. We have become really close and I’m very thankful for that.

Several years ago I met this guy. Everything was going OK until a few months later I found out he was seeing another girl. I broke up with him, but weeks later I was back with him. We have been together since then. I have broken up with him a lot of times. I know he has another girl. I find hair and panties at his house, but I’m still with him. If I break up with him I’ll feel guilty and he will blame the break up on me. I think I love him, but I'm not sure. I’m not happy with his behavior. I don’t see a future with him. I’m being faithful to him, but I know he's not with me. I talked to him about this and his response was that he's not talking to anyone else and that’s just how he is. I really want to move on. I need to move on, for me and my child! Any advice?

Last, the only thing that makes me happy is my daughter and my family. I have to say I love all of them and I know they love me. I'm truly blessed to have them in my life. We are really close to each other and are there for each other always.

Thank you, God. And thank you for reading this.