Good morning, sir,
Sir, now the things of God do not interest me. I have not really told anyone about Christ because when I tell them about Christ most of them agree to hand over their lives to Christ, but at the end, I realize that I am not happy. It seems like their growth scares me. When I am in the company of friends, and they begin to talk about God or begin to worship, I feel uncomfortable and unhappy. I tend to change the subject of discussion. I have prayed about it, but it still lingers. Lately, when I want to pray, I fall asleep instead.
I do not know what to do about it. Even reading the Bible is not interesting. It not like I can control the feeling. I really find that it occurs subconsciously.
Like many in this world, you confuse your feelings for faith.
You go to work each day, whether you feel like it or not. Some days at work are simply not fun, but you need to pay the bills, so you go anyway. No one forces you, but you know that there are consequences to the decisions that you make in regards to putting in your time at work.
Do you realize that if people only went to work when they felt like it, almost nothing would ever be done?
God never makes you want to be godly. You have to choose it because you know the consequences of your decisions. But my guess is that you don't really believe that there will be consequences. You lack faith and fear of God. "The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction" (Proverbs 1:7). Your lack of fear means you never really study your Bible, so what you know is shallow. You have little faith because of your lack of knowledge. "So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God" (Romans 10:17). Of course, you blame God for all of this because that avoids personal responsibility for the decisions that you have made.
What do you do? Well, that is up to you. I can point you to the truth, but I can't make you accept it. But please understand that the results are entirely of your own making.