People say God does not force, but why did God force me to be alive? Even He saw my life before I was born, and God knew that I didn’t want to be alive. Why was I born with autism? It is so hard to have autism. Why can’t I be normal like other people? What do you think would happen if I wasn’t born with autism?<\/p>\n
Is suicide a sin? The Bible doesn’t say anything about suicide being a sin, does it? If it does, then why is it a sin? Is harming yourself a sin? If it is, then why? If Christians say harming yourself is a sin, then why do I see Christians drink pop? Pop leads to kidney infections and kidney stones. They’re hurting themselves when drinking pop. What do you say about this?<\/p>\n
Are you glad God made me? If I lived right where you’re at right now, and you caught me hurting myself, would you stick me in a suicide hospital? If yes, then why?<\/p>\n\t
That God doesn’t force things to happen as He desires is clearly false. The world would not exist if God did not make it happen. But even on a personal scale, do you remember the story of the Ten Plagues? Those plagues forced Pharaoh to release the Israelites from slavery. As God once said, “Indeed I have spoken it; I will also bring it to pass. I have purposed it; I will also do it<\/em>” (Isaiah 46:11). That is what God’s sovereignty means.<\/p>\n No one asks to be alive. And every person can list good and bad things about his life. The problem is that it is very easy to focus only on the bad things and forget that good things also exist. I don’t know why you were born with autism, just as I don’t know why others were born blind, deaf, or with missing limbs. I know God is in control, but you and I don’t have insight as to what God sees and plans. There are too many variables involved. I don’t know what God sees that you can do with your life, and I can’t begin to know what your life would have been like without autism.<\/p>\n One time, the disciples came across a blind man, and that generated a discussion: “Now as Jesus passed by, He saw a man who was blind from birth. And His disciples asked Him, saying, ‘Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?’ Jesus answered, ‘Neither this man nor his parents sinned, but that the works of God should be revealed in him’<\/em>” (John 9:1-3). The disciples had assumed that handicaps must be because of sin. It might be true in a few cases, but Jesus said it wasn’t true in this case. Unknown to the blind man and his parents, God had put him in a position where Jesus could use him to prove God’s power.<\/p>\n I guess people could get wrapped up in sadness, saying that because they didn’t have wealth, beauty, or height, they couldn’t be happy. I feel sorry for such people because they are missing out on so much joy. “Not that I speak in regard to need, for I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content: I know how to be abased, and I know how to abound. Everywhere and in all things I have learned both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me<\/em>” (Philippians 4:11-13). Contentment is choosing to be happy regardless of what happens to you in life.<\/p>\n I’ve known miserable people who have everything and happy people who have almost nothing. So what I’m saying is that you can decide to be miserable and blame it on your autism, or you can decide to be happy and work around your particular handicap. I hope you choose to be happy.<\/p>\n We haven’t talked very long yet, but I can assure you that if I knew you were hurting yourself, I would do whatever I could to stop you. I hope it won’t be a case where you need to go to the hospital. That is because I care about the people I talk to, and you, especially, are no exception. Of course, I’m glad God made you. I wouldn’t have another young friend to talk with if you weren’t here.<\/p>\n