I read your post on unforgivable sins, but I'm still not sure where this sin fits in my life. When I was younger (around 12ish) I was committing a certain sin. I remember thinking, "Oh God if I ever do that again you can take away my salvation." Now, I'm not even sure I ever prayed that, but let's say I did, would He take it away? I feel hopeless, I keep telling God I'm sorry, but I worry that He says, "It's too late. You told me to take it away. I love you but you should have never done that." It's times like this that all I see is His wrath. Please help! I feel like I am all alone because I know no one who has ever done this!
"No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it" (I Corinthians 10:13).
I'm constantly amazed how many people delude themselves into thinking that God is trying to keep people out of heaven. God didn't send His Son just to taunt us with a possibility of heaven that is impossible to gain.
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved" (John 3:16-17).
"The Lord is not slack concerning His promise, as some count slackness, but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish but that all should come to repentance" (II Peter 3:9).
"But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us" (Romans 5:8).
""But if a wicked man turns from all his sins which he has committed, keeps all My statutes, and does what is lawful and right, he shall surely live; he shall not die. None of the transgressions which he has committed shall be remembered against him; because of the righteousness which he has done, he shall live. Do I have any pleasure at all that the wicked should die?" says the Lord GOD, "and not that he should turn from his ways and live?"" (Ezekiel 18:21-23).
"For this is good and acceptable in the sight of God our Savior, who desires all men to be saved and to come to the knowledge of the truth" (I Timothy 2:3-4).
So a twelve year old kid sins by telling God what He should do. And you think that God is going to listen to a foolish kid who doesn't know what she is saying? It wouldn't even be true for an adult.
"Seek the LORD while He may be found, Call upon Him while He is near. Let the wicked forsake his way, And the unrighteous man his thoughts; Let him return to the LORD, And He will have mercy on him; And to our God, For He will abundantly pardon. "For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways," says the LORD. "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts. "For as the rain comes down, and the snow from heaven, And do not return there, But water the earth, And make it bring forth and bud, That it may give seed to the sower And bread to the eater, So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; It shall not return to Me void, But it shall accomplish what I please, And it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it" (Isaiah 55:6-11).
The only unforgivable sin is one where the sinner refuses to repent. It has nothing to with God and everything to do with the stubbornness of some sinners. ""Therefore I will judge you, O house of Israel, every one according to his ways," says the Lord GOD. "Repent, and turn from all your transgressions, so that iniquity will not be your ruin. Cast away from you all the transgressions which you have committed, and get yourselves a new heart and a new spirit. For why should you die, O house of Israel? For I have no pleasure in the death of one who dies," says the Lord GOD. "Therefore turn and live!"" (Ezekiel 18:30-32).